Does anyone have a time machine?

Oh what I would give for a time machine to speed us up to October 13th! OR some morning sickness… Or anything else that let’s me know our little Arnie is growing. My belly bloat is going down, the sharp cyst ? pain doesn’t happen much anymore. The only things that I can try and relate to being pregnant is I do pee often and my chest is sore, not my boobs but where they connect to my chest, that part is sore and I am pretty tired all the time. I did pee on another stick and it still says 2-3. I’m hoping when I pee on another in a few days that it goes up to 3+. That will make me feel better. I’m trying to be patient and to have faith that God is taking care of my baby but it is so hard when you’re just waiting. The TWW has nothing on the first ultrasound wait. It doesn’t get better until you are holding a baby in your arms, I’ve come to realize that.

14 more days.



Option 1 Or 2…

So since Tuesday, 14 dpo, I have been having sharp sharppain on my right side, maybe once a day. The pain lasts for about 15 seconds and takes my breath, it HURTS! And then this morning I started having a duller version of the same pain on my left side. Still not frequent, maybe once a day. So of course I called the nurse this morning as soon as they opened. I had to leave a voicemail and she called back in ten minutes. ( They really are great). I told her what I was feeling and that I hadn’t gotten on the internet, which is true and that I know it’s one of two options. 1. ( the worst option ) ectopic pregnancy. 2. Cysts.

Well while talking to my nurse we deduced that it is option 2. Cysts. With my last gonadatropins cycle I had to wait out a cycle because I had like 6 or 8 cysts. So I probably have cysts again and now that I’m pregnant, this/ these cysts are helping produce progesterone until the placenta takes over, assuming it/ they are a corpus luteum cyst which results from follicles after ovulation. We will know more whenever I go in for an ultrasound ten years from now! Haha, really October 13th. And the pain is now on both sides, so that rules out ectopic even more! If this is the case then I can handle the pain. The nurse also said it is far too early to be feeling pain if this were ectopic, which makes me feel SO much better.

I’m done freaking out now. On to take a nap. :). Then I’m going to sew some hospital gowns for two friends who are pregnant.
Have a WONDERFUL weekend!

2 Beta Results

So I went this morning for my second beta. They just called with my results. Here they are:


The NP told me Tuesday the beta didn’t have to “double” but technically increase by 6 fold. So just multiply your first beta by 1.6. That means I would’ve needed today’s beta to be 412. It was 477. It’s higher than I needed but now that I’ve put it in this calculator it doesn’t make me as happy. That seems a bit slow. What are y’all’s thoughts?

I called the nurse and left a message to call me back. She returned my cal and reassured me that everything was fine. Five mintes later the NP called and told me to stay off of the internet and that I should be doing cartwheels! Lol. She reassured me even more that these numbers are wonderful. I am so thankful for them and their kindness to even make the time to call me back. I am, from this moment on, ( going to try to) enjoy this pregnancy. It is a gift fromGod and we have spent too much time fretting and wondering. I choose to stay away from Dr Google and thank God every second for this miracle. Thank YOU ladies for your positive encouragement. I would be a basket case if not for y’all!
Love, V

Ignorance is Bliss

It definitely is. I mean, not in everything but in infertility. We know too much. We know exactly what can go wrong. We know exactly what our numbers should be. We know when we should be feeling certain things. Why can’t we be blissfully ignorant like the rest of the women who don’t have to experience all of this? But then again there can be something said for being prepared for untoward results. Just rambling. My brain won’t shut off. This is just not fair, that we have to go through any of our journeys like this.

To cheer myself up I went and bought some onsies (WAY too early, I know but I couldn’t help it). I’m giving them to Mr. B tonight.

I hope everyone is having a good day!

The results are in….

Beta HCG:

Greater than 40. That’s as high as they test.

Does this mean multiples? (I know we won’t really know until the ultrasound but still). I’m sweating right now. Now we just need a beta of at least 412.8 on Thursday! They scheduled my ultrasound for October 13th. I CANNOT wait!

Is this real life???
I sure hope so.

Take A looksie

Shouldn’t this say 2-3 weeks? :(. I am 13DPO, I think.


You guys have been amazing helping me out these last few days I am so grateful! Thank you!!!!

One Lovely Blog Award

One Lovely Blog Award. Thank you, rayplaag02 for my nomination! I have only recently been reading your blog but I have come to find that I look for your posts more than others. I love reading what you have to say whether it’s about infertility or about your walk from your office to your car (creepy)! You have an overwhelming health history and you are SO strong to be able to still power on with wit and motivation. I can’t wait for the day you start posting about your own “reproductive areas” when there is a baby cookin’ in there!

The criteria for accepting a One Lovely Blog Award are:

List the rules.
Thank your nominator.
List seven (7) facts about yourself.
Nominate 15 other bloggers and let them know you did.
Display the award logo and follow your nominator.

Facts About Me:
1. I have two labs. They are my babies! So many people told me that when we have a baby that we will put them outside! I wouldn’t dare. They will just have to learn to share their mommy. ๐Ÿ™‚

Cam on the left (4 years old) and Jake on the right (1 1/2 years old)

2. I am a huge football fan, only high school and college. My husband coaches the wide receivers of a 6 A football team here in Alabama, they are pretty darn good! I hope we make it to the state championship! My college team is the Auburn Tigers. War Eagle anyone? I am excited about the new playoff system this year, maybe Auburn will make it to the national championship again this year. I’ve already looked at hotels and flights to Arlington! Lol.

3. I am graying at the early age 29. I have started getting my hair dyed, which I do not like because it’s so expensive. One day when it’s my entire head, I will rock it but not while I have a Stacey London streak.

4. I am a lefty which means I’m constantly getting ink on my hand. When my parents taught me to cut food with my utensils, they didn’t teach me to swap hands with the knife and fork like they do, I just cut and eat. ๐Ÿ™‚

5. I LOVE to aggravate my husband when it’s time for us to go to sleep. He gets irritated but it always makes him laugh!

6. I mentioned this in my Leibster award facts about me but I’ll say it again. I LOVE Dr. Pepper! It is heaven in a bottle. I am cutting way down if I get pregnant, I swear. ๐Ÿ™‚

7. I have truly come to love blogging and the relationships it has started. I have found a sisterhood of women who are like me, and y’all accept me as one of your own. I pray daily that we all have a happy end to these miserable journeys.

I am not going to nominate anyone because all of the blogs I read are deserving and have been nominated so if you haven’t been nominated please feel free to do this! It really is fun!